Please help. IN THERAPY but dont know how to tell my therapist about these feelings incase she dumps me?

Please help. Im34 yr old woman - no siblings. I was raised by a severly disruptive mentally ill mother and my father played a very small role in my upbringing, he moved half hour away. When i was 17yrs old i developed severe panic and anxiety which was debilitating. I was bullied all my way through school. NO Gp / doc could explain the panic attacks or refer me for therapy. I made my own decision to see a therapist and set up my own appointments.! At this stage i believed i was stupid and mentally ill. My grades were through the floor. They were never good,education wasnt considered important and there was no routine in the house, just craziness. Basically i clicked immediately with this therapist and thought wow what a cool mum she would be. I done ok in life for myself,college education and reasonable jobs. She would constantly tell me she was so proud of me,that im so intellegant,that im one of her special clients. My confidence developed. Anyhow i would check in with her af difficult times this past 17yrs as i feel i can tackle anything after. I have had periods of 4/5yrs no contact and where i wouldnt think of her. However im back again and my feelings of fondness are stronger than ever. My mom sadly is in institutional care now and i find that so sad and difficult. My partner and I have also become unemployed and that is very stressful. We also have to move about 100 miles away and I dont want to, but we have to find work. We were never unemployed before and our money is being ate up. Then my father got ill and i'm worried about him. Im seeing my therapist agsin but i find my feelings of warmth and longing to be her friend are very strong. I wish shed love me as a daughter. But i know shes my therapist, and that is it. Thats all it ever will be. Our sessions run over 20 mins per time. She gives me special rate and now hugs me at end of sessions. She never done that before. She is 76 yrs old but looks 60. I realise theres boundaries here and shes only doing her job so il prob never be her friend. The pain of this is horrid. I connect with her on such an emotional level and know that for her she feels prob none of what i feel. I feel id love to vo live with her and us to nurture each other. I know its crazy. Whats wrong with me and can i discuss this with her. Im scared shel stop my therapy and i couldnt handle that right now. I will so appreciate your feed back. Thanks so much in advance.